Yesterday was my ah ma's 70th bdae.. so invited pee ann and zhiwen go oso.. den went there with jack and serene 1st.. den go meet pee ann and zhiwen.. den later and later every1 in the family came.. long time nvr had such a gathering.. yesterday its was fun.. except for some no balls bastards ruin the good moods of every1.. those bastards better off dead.. den after my ah ma bdae.. me, zhiwen, pee ann, jack,serene,huimin and ah xian went cycling after a heavy dinner we had.. den went back jack hse wash up den pee ann and zhiwen went back while i stay at jack hse.. later going to meet pee ann and zhiwen and peng with serene and jack.. cos after that they going boook in..

Lastly.. want wish my ah ma stay healthy and cheerful always.. =D

Ah di
my mood is like angry.. but like a bit moody.. plus a bit sad.. wth.. wad going on with me?
signing off

9/27/2009 05:21:00 PM

The pain i have is unbearable.. i cant handle the pain.. ever since u walked out i have been standing here all alone crying. i cant escape the pain that u gave me.. u were and are my everything. u caused me so much pain.. the pain is unbearable. how can i find a cure for this pain? the pain is unbearable for years, its getting too much for me to handle. my heart is yours but u don't seem to care. u stand there and smile while i am in tears.. broken hearts are never healed.. dealing with the pain and heart break is never easy.. and now i'm here, all alone.. wondering what i have done so wrong.. watching my whole life before my eyes and feeling the cruel world crash down on me.. Can't you see what pain u had caused?Does anyone know that my heart is broken ? perhaps no one really knows because of the laughter I show when I'm with them, no ones know that my heart is hurting because of that person. Years have passed by but the memories are still here.. i may look happy.. take it as nothing had happen. i can laugh and laugh, i can lie to myself, my brothers and my friends.. but i cant lie to my heart.. and the tears from the laughter are the tears from the heartbreak.. hais..



;( Ah di );
If I'm so emotionless, why does it still hurt ?Sometimes, i wonder if people would be happier if i wasn't here..
Signing off

9/24/2009 08:55:00 PM

Yesterday went serene hse play man lat and eat dinner.. Thanks to her mama.. the dinner was good... den after tat we had our man lat session. Den ard 11 we all a bit sian, den decided to chiong all the way to jack hse for cycling. But after reaching jack hse, all look tired liao.. so didnt went for cycling so every1 watch tv, chit chat and slp. when everyone is lying down,there is this particular person slping beside me talking, whispering to himself non-STOP.. 害我睡不着。but jus wan tell him i had recorded part of talk. and oso duplicate one copy into serene laptop. haha.. figuring now how to put in blog.. LOLS.. den out of a sudden, every 1 went to slp. den pee ann and zhiwen wake up ard 9 plus and went back.. den me slp til 1 ++.. den went lunch with jack and serene. den took a long way back to my hse.. thanks to serene.. :X Ltr going out again to meet them again.. so i shall end my blog here.. and go to slp 1st..


aH DI
absence diminishes small loves and increases great ones,as the wind blows out the candle and blows up the bonfire
Signing off

9/21/2009 04:07:00 PM

Afternoon ard 2 plus wake up.. den head very pain.. like one blood vessel going to burst like that.. den whole person very blur..den wash up.. went to cut hair.. cut away all the unpleasant memories.. going to change into a new ME.. from my long hair long sideburns til now very very short hair.. feel like very refreshing.. so a new JIAN WEI, AH DI is reborn today.. stepping out of all the unhappiness, walking forward to a new path.

yesterday.. went out with pee ann, zhi wen, jack, serene and kevin to town.. meet up @ ard 3 plus.. supposed to meet @ 3 but some ones late den have to wait. went amk central eat 1st before heading to town.. den go town meet zilin.. den went walk ard.. den end up @ lucky plaza our usual place in town to play arcade and pool.. den went to have our dinner there oso.. after that pee ann wan to go see how club V3 look like.. so zilin brought us there.. i think nx time should ask zilin bring a GPS come out.. if not she will be lost in singapore if she is alone..own hse oso dono how to go back. where got such a person dono how to go back to his or her own hse.. i bet she an alien.. LOL.. den went club v3 look look den decided to go zilin working pub drink. went there order 5 jugs.. found that i long time nvr drink like cant drink liao.. not like last time we used to drink almost every weekends.. den drink til zilin knock off from her work. den went sg river relax.. den wait for zilin chauffeur to send her hm.. den we go wake for cab to go home.. from boat quay to chinatown den have cab go hm.. knnbccb.. got $ no cab want pick us up.. all is wan change shift de.. finally @ ard 7 plus reach hm.. den bath and slp..

Later going to serene hse for MJ session.. den her mum cooked for us dinner.. wa.. paiseh plus a bit touched sia.. hope can win some tonight.. ti gong bo pi bo pi.. bo pi wa win a bit ar.. not greedy but win a bit... and not onli must win.. and oso the most is to enjoys!! HUAT LAH!!






Ah DI
To forget mean putting it in one corner and never think about it again..
孤独寂寞的我 等待着世界另一边的那个你
Signing off

9/20/2009 05:16:00 PM

Just finish my work.. this whole week is damn shag.. tonite could be a nice day to slp after work but my brothers in arms, my army fren jio me out.. long time no see them so decide to meet them.. and of cos thg of putting aeroplane oso.. but thinking of later not my aeroplane kanna bomb, is my hp kanna bomb.. in army wad ever problem or tio dai ji with other camp ppl or officer. they were there to back me up.. well wad i can say they r really a true fren that i found in my 2 yrs NS. and of cos compare to my brothers. they ranked 2nd place.. so meetting them ltr @ Marina sq den to bugis for steamboat.. after that dono whr will they go liao.. see wad the plan..

Tml meeting zhiwen, pee ann, jack, serene and zilin. maybe will meet them quite late as to see how the plan goes tonight.

other than tat.. jus wan to say, ITS FINALLY FRIDAY AND A LONG WEEKENDS.. EVERYONE ENJOYS!!

Ah DI
沉默着走了有 多遥远 抬起头 蓦然间 才发现 一直倒退 倒退到原点.. HAIS~
Signing Off

9/18/2009 06:09:00 PM

WEnt cycling on sat night.. with me myself ah di, ah wen, ah ann, ah wei, weiwei, ah mei and ah xian.. went cycling ard serangoon and sengkang area.. cycle cycle cycle cycle cycle til all the way ard 5++6am den reach ah wei hse.. den everyone bath.. den i bth liao went to slp 1st.. slp till ah ann wake me up with his voice.. like alarm clock like tat.. den ann and wen went hm.. den slp til 4++ wake up den meet ann and wen in amk again den talk cock and discuss whr wan meet nx sat.. den book in de book in.. hm sweet hm de went hm.. dono how to survived for the rest of the week liao.. cos left $2.45.. buy cig oso not enuff.. knn.. jia lat liao.. nx fri still going for steamboat with my brothers in arm.. hais.. i think i go slp 1st den think of how to survive for the rest of the days til pay day..

ah di
Zzz=.=zzZ
dun make somebody ur everything. coz once he or she is gone, u are left with nothing..
signing off

9/13/2009 10:01:00 PM

Jus wake up to blog.. blog abt the rounding session. Later going back to slp again.. my eyes half open half close.. Yesterday went balestier Rd to rent a 10 ft lorry with zhiwen, jack and serene.. quite cheap lor.. 50$ rental plus 50$ deposit.. and of cos the lorry wasn't in good condition.. is like quite lousy.. after rental and all the checks.. i drove to pump some diesel cos knn that lorry going to be no more diesel liao den drove to jack hse to pick up huimin den went zhiwen hse.. let zhiwen test drive a bit, cos he use to drive car which is auto de, some more lorry is manual de.. so he test drive abit den went to his camp to collect some of his things. waited outside the camp for him. den again i drive to serene hse to take one of her tv.. den slack here slack there have our late lunch while waiting for zilin.. den went to panjang plaza to pick up zilin.. den went back to jack and zhi wen hse to put back all their things..

It was already 6 plus 7. den our 1st destination is was to go changi.. went ard OCH there ard village.. den zilin and hui min like so eager to going explore OCH like that.. but majority didnt wan to cos 7th month.. so all never went in.. den drove to lim chu kang some wulu wulu area for jack,serene,huimin and zilin fro their test driving session.. @ first zhiwen was guiding them den changed me.. for me @ 1st it was very scary.. MY balls i already left in my hse never take out den they still can scared me til my heart wan drop out.. LOLS.. some turning point like wan hit tree den some even went up the curb and nearly hit the power box den after i drove and teach them how to clutch in den get biting point.. den they started to improve slowly.. after all i give them a pass for their test driving.. they were not stupid after i teach them driving.. haha lol.. if i were to rank them out den its go like this.. jack, huimin, zilin and serene.. cos the most EMERGENCY BRAKE I PULL is when serene was driving..haha.. scary driver..jkjk.. lols.. but i believe them tat they can do it. so wish them faster get driving license den got $ everyone rent a car out den go for rounding... den went back to jack hse to pick up his parents and hao hao go east coast bedok jetty to find uncle.. den enjoy the breeze while hao hao go fishing
den the girls sit one side to gossip here gossip there.. den jack was gaming with his younger bro hao hao.. while me and zhiwen sit another side to chat.. we chat very long and loads of thing.. we chat abt WHO,WHAT,WHY,WHEN,HOW.. den ard 3++ 4 am go changi village to eat our breakfast cum supper.. den went ard to see ah gua.. den send jack parents and his younger bro back hm sweet hm.. den went chinese garden.. slack there a while.. during the journey den the girls cant tahan liao so went to slp.. some more the girls like really treat the lorry as their bed.. den slp til like pig like tat.. not even think of their images while a loads of ppl were looking @ the 3 little pigs Zzz.. one slp til mouth open big big.. den another one likes to put her feet out of the lorry railing to let other road user enjoy her feet smell.. and one more bandage herself with jacket herself like mummy like tat.. wahaha.. i saw those ppl on the bus see till their eyes big big mouth big big and wondering wad r this 3 little pigs doing.. wahaha.. den send zilin and huimin back hm..
den the rest of us went back balestier rd to return the lorry.. den cabbed hm to slp.. after 1 day of rounding very tired.. so reached hm bath straight away slp til now.. going to slp more after this.. cos later going cycling.. we will plan more rounding session in future.. after all it was very fun but dono wad other think is it fun a not..

hao bah.. i will stop here.. i wan go Zzz liao..

Ah di
爱没有对错 ; 只有伤痛 . 失落 遗憾 伤心 - 你说的话,我一直不能放下.我是否爱错.不再哭.不回头 - 我想这是最后一次 可以骄纵任性放肆
Signing off..

9/12/2009 06:00:00 PM

These past days work is very tiring as cant sleep at night hence not enough sleep.. but thinking of tml on leave and going out for a rounding session..feel very excited.. but got veh but dono whr to go.. nvm.. tml den decide again..

This afternoon call zhiwen to confirm tml outing with him.. den chat and concern abt our bro pee ann.. suddenly he raised his voice and tell me: "WHy is there no 1 to care for me?! not onli pee ann feeling down, he oso feeling down.. well.. perhaps i neglect him le.. he feeling down, i believe is onli that matters.. well well well... 2 bros feeling down.. 1 bro sailing in the sea while another 1 more bro in army seems enjoying his life.. the only person to care and concern them i think is me.. lols.. pai seh zhiwen.. i will care and concern u and pee ann @ the same time.. but if i were to care for u bros.. den who going to care for me? i onli 1 person 1 piece nia.. Oso no 1 care for me.. i oso very xin ku de.. :( lols. jkjk.. wahaha.. i no nid ppl care de.. I don hav any joy or sorrow.. jus an emotionless guy.. happy go lucky.. still the old sentence i always say.. " onli for the sake of my brothers.. got brothers got me.. no brothers i think i had end my life earlier..

So whenever u bros nid me i will always be there.. This sentence swee b0? if whoever, bros or frens is feeling down can call me anytime anywhere if I'm free.. but if u r happy don forget to share with me! =D

Going to slp soon.. as prepare for tml rounding session and sat night cycling.. wonder if there any one can be beside me singing songs or read bedtime stories for me to slp.. LOLS..

Ah Di
人生中总是会遇到很多事是你无法想象的.. 就算是伤心难过或心碎的事，当你想起的时候，都会变成美好的回忆~~
Signing off to dreamland..

9/10/2009 06:29:00 PM

Today work was shag and very very tired.. when going to reach the end of my work, Pee Ann called.. so we chat til i knock off frm work. As we chat along, can hear that he is feeling very very down.. feeling very very sad.. Just suddenly his tears dropped le.. I know he had been holding his tears for a very long time liao. so asked him to let go all his sadness.. Oso can feel his pressure and stress from army too. after recently so much thing had happen on him. I can feel for his sadness and pain he got. To my bro like tat.. i oso feel sad.. So decided to go to his hse after work to accompany him. went his hse.. chat with him. don let him think too much.. den after that go to our usual place to had dinner.. after dinner we sat down and chat.. i called zhiwen too to chat with him.. hope that he can feel better. den @ ard 8++pm.. den he headed towards his camp and i went back hm.

So Pee ann.. when ever u feeling down, can call us.. WAD R BROTHERS FOR?.. For fun? NO RITE!! BROTHERS R FOR SHARING HAPPINESS AND UNHAPPINESS!NO MATTER WAD WE BROTHERS R ALWAYS THERE FOR U! SO hope whenever u r down. CALL us.. don hold it to urself.. dont u think it is pain while keEping everything to urself?


As spoken jus now.. i will make myself free on either 26th sept or 3rd oct.. as i know u wan go clubbing to let out all ur unhappiness and stress.. And u wan to cycling on this sat, i will let jack know if we can go cycling again.. cos can see serene is quite tired after 2 weekends of cycling.. if not we borrow bicycle from him den go..

And coming friday.. going rounding.. a bit sian that pee ann and peng cant tag along as they have army.. but nvm. we can still arrange another outing again.. taking the veh on friday 12pm til sat 12 pm.. still no planning on where to go yet.. and will discuss with the group coming with me whether thay have any place in their minds..

So i shall end my blog here.

AH di
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9/07/2009 08:54:00 PM

After continuous 2 nites of cycling.. my whole body is achin,, and cos of eat the mega spicy my throat become swollen.. cos too heaty liao..my mum say is throat infection,, sian liao lor.. now talking like retarded.. eat or drink oso pain.. hais.. will cut all the details.. as i very tired..



the 1st nite went cycling @ serangoon garden area..
The 2nd nite went cycling @ east coast..

Although is tired.. but It very fun..

And pee ann cheer up.. We bros, u, me, zhiwen will continue our L&H.

9/06/2009 04:00:00 PM

today work was so damn tired and shag.. still recovering from my flu.. by right i can borrow lorry from my aunt.. but now Singapore implement a new rules for lorry and therefore i cant use my aunt lorry that does not meet the new rules of the requirement.. knnccb.. cos of this i have to go find car rental.. and oso still got zhi wen there to help me.. thanks bro.. hopefully we can find a lorry that can rent out cheap.. just to find car rental, find til my head spinning and can feel my head behind one of the blood vessel going to burst.. PS to All.. actually can borrow just that cos of that stupid rules, and we had to rent lorry and hav pay for both lorry and diesel.. i will stop blogging here as nid to sleep more.. cos my flu is caused of not enough slp.. lol.. this is wad the doc say ytd.. ask me slp more..

Ah di
Signing off

9/01/2009 06:31:00 PM