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Sunday, October 18, 2009

Yesterday was so shiok.. slp til 2pm+ den wake up.. but was also feeling weak cos still recovering from my cough. den meet pee ann, zhiwen, serene and jack to amk.. we had no whr to go.. no place in our mind to explore. so went KFC to have lunch cum dinner 1st.. after KFC, we slack awhile. til some one came up with an idea to go cycling which i didnt want to.. but no choice so acc them cycle as pee ann going to meet some ppl from our secondary school. den went all the way dw to jack hse to cycle.. after tat cycle all the way to lena's hse @ kovan. @ there saw some of our secondary sch frens, its been 7 yrs since we last met. @ there got kai tiong, lin zhi wei, kenneth, jian cheng, lena, si yu, xiao hui and kimberley. guess i didnt miss anyone out or spell the names incorrectly.. so stay down til 11 plus.. cos serene ask if we want go rounding with huimin and xian.. so part our secondar sch frens and went jack hse to meet them. nice catching up with them as some had changed.. maybe now all working liao.. well ppl do changed.. @ ard 1 am.. we started off with our rounding in Xian driving his toyota wish. went bukit timah to eat @ 1st.. but dono whr is the place so went to panjang plaza to eat mac.. after tat jack and serene headed hm swt hm.. the rest of us continue to round.. as hui min suggested to go henderson waves so went them.. slack ard 5am.. den every 1 hm swt hm.. Thanks Xian for driving us hm.. its a fun journey.. nx week i'll pass some petrol $$ to u.. better take!! Lols..

later meeting the usual us @ our usual place again.. nx week will blog lesss. cos my schedule nx week is busy.. and tml nid to wake up early for the stupid audit again.. 2 more audits on monday to go.. wth..

Ah di
You could have been my Super Woman!
Signing off

10/18/2009 04:19:00 PM

Monday, October 12, 2009

12/10/09

Went work early in the morning ard 7 cos today got the stupid audit again. cos due to the train we service got a bit of prob and plus today damn much works to do.. drag myself to work as felt my head was so damn heavy den eyes half closed.. after the whole day audit.. felt very tired.. cos the auditors like to ask a lot of question ask til i pek chek.. they already knows the answer still wan to ask.. knn.. wan us to tell them the answer. if say wrong den they can fault us.. knn.. lucky i'm so clever.. jus say the 3 magic words " I DONT KNOW" den pass all the question to my supervisor.. haha.. later going to slp.. maybe a little time spent in SA 1st.. but b4 tat i shall updates all the activities during the weekends.

11/10/09

Wake up @ 2++pm.. slack ard @ jack hse.. den went hougang point to shop with jack and serene. den went lunch cum dinner.. den packet food for jack family and ah xian. after tat ard 8 meet pee ann and zhiwen @ our usual place.. i think our usual place is going to be forgotten soon.. why i say like tat.. cos it used to be a place for the 4 of us to share all our joy and sorrow there.. after peng seldom meet us there, den pee ann say he don wan to come out le.. so left me and zhiwen.. the place is like going to be forgotten as 1 by 1 leaving the place like tat.. is like quite some time never feel the atmosphere we used to be @ our usual place. actually is we never had the same fun again as we r b4.. hais.. suan le.. wan come out don wan come out meet suit u all.. as long as we don forget each other can liao.. 10 yrs plus friendship is not easy.. if one wan MIA den we shall MIA tgt.. ai ya.. don wan say liao.. say till pek chek oso..

10/10/09

Early morning wake up meet zhiwen, huimin, ah xian, jack and serene go JB enjoys.. reach there ard 10 plus 11 den went to hav heavy breakfast. den went singing session, shop, play, smoke... shorten up all the details for JB cos jus wan to say we enjoys it much. but pee ann and peng cant join.. hope they can join the nx oversea outing. after tat 11pm reach SG, went serene hse to pack her clothes den after tat cabbed down to jack hse. play abit man lat den went for drinking session.. after tat while everyone were slping as tired and tipsy, me and jack stay awake for our SA session.. LOLS.. cos we still haven drink enugh.. den zhiwen join along with us oso.. till 7 plus in the morning den zzZ!

09/10/09

After work went to eat @ sakura international buffet with my colleagues @ YCK.. pay 30$ but eat more than 100$ food.. haha.. like long time nvr eat like tat go inside chiong eating all the way til i full + bloated til i cant stand or sit and smoke oso cant smoke.. hais.. eat so much till go back hm donated to my hse toilet bowl.. like waste the $ like tat.. LOLS

Its seems like me and zhiwen going to be left alone liao.. like wad i say earlier earlier in the blog.. from 4 to 3, now 3 to 2 liao.. hais.. jus wan tell pee ann, when we r tgt, $ is not a matter of issue.. the matter is jus as long as we r happy to share our joy tgt, sad to share our sorrow. peng seldom meet us as he nid to acc kat, this one can understand. but u cos of $ issue den don feel like come out.. i don think u can use tat for ur reason. last time we no $ oso like tat come out hav fun.. why not now? den wad is " brothers, 1 heart 1 soul" tat u said b4? if ya don feel like come out den i oso cant force you.. see how u decide.. if all don wan meet den don meet.. from now on i wont say anything regarding this matter anymore.

Ah DI
A true friend is someone who is there for you when he'd rather be somewhere else.
Signing off

10/12/2009 06:47:00 PM

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

最近好累, 好久没写日志了哦。。最近一直在努力做工和赚钱,简直是忙的不亦乐乎!!今天无意
间听到了梁静茹的《崇拜》,一股难以言喻的痛楚不着痕迹的从心上流过。为什么感到这般如此的
痛?分手后不可以做朋友,因为彼此伤害过,也不可以做敌人,因为彼此深爱过!所以我们成了最
熟悉的陌生人!感情其实我真的输不起!为什么用了心的时候,爱不对的人,合适的人总是出现在
不合适的时候?我放下了尊严,放下了个性,放下了固执,但还是放不下你。。只觉得心好痛,我流
着眼泪,将所有你最近传的信息一个一个的删掉。。我记得我曾经告诉自己,不许在写有关你的任
何东西,可我还是做不到,又一次写有关你的事,我真的好累。。我也讨厌自己总这样,告诉自己,
干脆利落一点,所以剪了头发, 本想大改变发型,但总想得太多。。 越来越不懂自己想要的是什么。
直到现在才知道自己对她并没有完全放开,一直以为我已经做到了, 不在为她而烦恼,但发现我一
直都在逃避。直到现在真的感觉到累了,看到自己现在这样的狼狈的样子,心里很矛盾。如果说不
爱,却又真的不想失去她,更不想放弃。。一切的一切我都不敢想的太多。。。。。我怕自己会崩溃
掉。。。。。。。。不过我想也差不多要崩溃了。。。。或许我真的应该学会去放弃,从心底里放弃, 干净
利落, 真真正正, 不留痕迹地放弃。。

好几天了,可能是因为做工太累,也或许是其他原因,整晚整晚失眠,大半夜都睡不着觉。。没有人知
道我心里是怎么想的,只想说一句:如果时间可以倒流,我会珍惜机会的,不让自己后悔的。。我愿
意, 在爱的路上 陪你再走一回, 风雨的季节, 再也不让你孤独地俳徊,漆黑的夜晚,再也不让你偷偷
地流泪,但是时间是永远都不可能倒流的!! 如今的我,不过是一个普通而又平淡的人,没有太大
的理想,没有太大的抱负,每天做着自己该做的事情。。 可是面对如此死一般的生活,我总是感到
有些无趣。不知道今天是怎么了,天气很好,我却一点精神也提不起来,什么也不想做,连动也不想
动,感觉好累,也不知道为什么,但是就是很累很累。。 很怀念一些事情,但是又不知道在想些什
么,好无聊!让我感觉生活是那么的无趣!算了。。还是试着去睡觉, 要不然明天, 后天, 大后天会
很忙很忙, 会觉得好累好累。。这几天不会去写日记, 因为会忙到累到没那个时间去写。。

认识一个人,是个缘。

  期盼一个人,眼睛会酸。
  等待一个人,心会疲倦。
   喜欢一个人,却如此简单。
   爱一个人,确很难,很难。






阿弟
(>_ _<)
( (..) )

爱你无悔 你在我心中就是最美 我在你给我的梦里深深陶醉 即使注定今生错过 我的爱与祝福 也会

把你永远追随
。。

10/06/2009 09:37:00 PM


A Death Certificate shows that we died
Pictures show that we lived!
Relax . . . And read this slowly..

Just because two people argue,
it doesn't mean they don't love each other.
And just because they don't argue,
it doesn't mean they do love each other.

I Believe...
We don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

No matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and
you must forgive them for that.

True friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance..
The same goes for true love.

I Believe..
You can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I Believe...
That it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I Believe...
You should always leave loved ones with loving words.
It may be the last time you see them.

I Believe...
You can keep going long after you think you can't.

I Believe...
We are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I Believe...
Either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I Believe...
Money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I Believe...
My best friend and I, can do anything, or nothing and have the best time.

I Believe...
Sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down,
will be the ones to help you get back up.

I Believe...
Maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had
and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I Believe..
It isn't always enough, to be forgiven by others.
sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I Believe...
No matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I Believe...
Our background and circumstances may have

influenced who we are, but. are responsible for who we become...

I Believe...
Two people can look at the same thing and see something totally different.

I Believe...
Your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.
(WOW, THAT’s SO TRUE!!!)

I Believe...
Even when you think you have no more to give,
when a friend cries out to you - you will find the strength to help.

I Believe...
Credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I Believe...
'The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything;
they just make the most of everything..'

10/06/2009 09:32:00 PM

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Yesterday was moon cake festival.. As usual meet pee ann, jack and serene @ our usual hang out place. zhiwen didnt join as he got guard duty. den meet le, went to have our dinner, followed by huimin and ah xian come meet us.. so we sit down there chat.. didnt know tat pee ann share a similiar dreams with me. LOLS.. we went crazy as we chat abt the dreams.. den after tat some one suggest go cycling as this activities had been our usual outing after man lat outing.. cos it saves $$.. and can oso keep fit.. so went jack hse to take our bicycle, went to find kevin den i think he was with his gf. so decided to go down amk as pee ann nid settle something. so cycle all the way to amk. den cycle back to find kevin @ serangoon garden again.. =.=" Went nearby park to play with all the candles serene bought.. sit down there and chill.. den after tat went jack hse nearby kopitiam to eat supper and had drinks. den headed back hm sweet hm.. the outing was fun.. cos of 2 joker. LOLS.. haha.. DOn mention names who is it.. o.O?

jus now went our usual place again to meet up with zhi wen, peng, kat,pee ann, jack and serene. discuss abt the chalet we organising for DEC.den after tat as usual, headed hm swt hm..

tml start work liao.. feel a bit lazy.. how come weekends so fast.. hais.. no choice but to earn $. And recently had been into this games call SA (sudden attacK). jus to passs time.. in 2 months time going me 23 yr old liao.. getting older le.. nid earn loads of $ for future.. but dono can find my lifetime partner a not.. hmmm.. tired of finding oso.. walk 1 step see 1 step ba.. hais.. going to play SA for a little while b4 going into my dreamland..

Ah Di
你和我会不会有以后? 我的爱只能够让你一个人独自拥有, 我的伤和眼泪化为乌有为你而流! 你听见了吗???
Signing off

10/04/2009 09:55:00 PM

Thursday, October 1, 2009

FUCK!!! MY EAR PIECE SPOILT.. KANINA BUAY CHAO CHEE BYE!! I KNOW MY EAR PIECE IS CHEAP AND COST ONLI 9.90$.. BUT IT SEEM LIKE MY FAMILY DONO HOW TO CHERISH IT.. KANINA BEI.. PUAH CHEE BYE.. PUAH BI YAO SIU.. KANINA!! WHEN I GO OUT MY EAR PIECE IS NICELY PLACED AT THE COMPUTER DESK, COME BACK LEFT SPOILT! MY FAMILY STILL SAY DONO. FUCK!! THINK WAD?? MY EAR PIECE COMMIT SUCIDE AR??? KANINA DU LAN.. THROW AWAY THE EAR PIECE.. KNNBCCB _|_ !!!

10/01/2009 10:14:00 PM
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Name: Tan Jian Wei, Benson
D.O.B:09.12.1986
Horoscpoe: Sagittarius

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